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dan itulah dia. i don’t wanna start the drama because i know, i gonna ended up lose at the end. she is the girl and i am the man. yeah yeah yeah. her chatting with someone else is much more fun in this world. who am i gonna stop her from doing that? i’m not a married man. so i have to give more SPACE to her for her to enjoy her life. she can chat with her x because? oh because her ex got this aura that attracts her. ah. i am fed up with this. mengata dulang paku serpih, mengata orang dia yang terlebih-lebih. one day kate “bodoh gila perempuan tuh! dah break up dah sudah la.” and the other day pulak, alaaaaaa, rindu la pulak ayat-ayat cinta my x. nak chat la. kejap2 aku bukak skype aku, tengok die online ke tak. oh, alamakkkk die x online la pulak… hmm, takpe la.. boleh tengok website die.. www.x.com
sedih… maybe i am the one who is emo. tapi for sure i cannot understand her no more. what she did tomorrow is not gonna be the same as the future to come. i know her as the one who is not gonna share a secret that involves her and someone else. i still remembered that! when she said that to me, late night at second floor of Jacob’s Hall. I do still remembered that! but now, it is even more than just a friend. i ended up being her boyfriend right now and so, i taught, my secret gonna be even more safe with her as long as it involves two people, me (now her boyfriend) and her. and i taught everything that i told her are secrets that i don’t wanna her to share with somebody else. for God’s sake, at least please at least, at least! ask me before you told somebody else. first, kak Min. ya Allah. aku nak bunuh diri je hari tu. tak tawu nak cakap ape. hate that i love you. tapi ex-best friend hari tu buzz la pulak, chit chat and just because he reminds me that i still in love with you. i don’t commit suicide. next, “kak long fatin dah tawu semue” 
(((( kak long fatin tahu everything “before you met with me” is okay! but after you met me is not okay! i cannot accept that! you gave a reason oh, kak long fatin dah kenal 18 tahun dah. tapi 18 tahun yang dulu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! not your 18 tahun akan datang. not your 2 years here being with me! till today i cannot accept that, you sharing your secret AND MY SECRET! with somebody else that i don’t even know, i don’t even met, just knowing her, her name, fatin. but still i keep reminding myself that i still love you, i love you a lot that these things not gonna be the end of us. and hoping that there is no more people or somebody else who gonna be the fourth person to know about us. omg, sir hilmi. hmm….
and i keep reminding myself, as long as she is happy, i will also be happy.
Woooo~~~ I love you too, sayang~
Kesian la plak nak malukan kau… citer salah ni… camne ek? aihhhh~~~ sian kucing aku malu.
macam peribahasa “malu-malu kucing” a.. tapi ni malu tahap cipan ni
malu kat mane tu? aku salah citer ke? hmm, takpe la, aku bukan kenal sangat kau pun. fatin lagi kenal kau. 18 tahun la katakan. aku 2 tahun pun tak sampai lagi. aku bukannye tahu semue citer kau. nak korek2 pun nak macam tak nak dah. nak tanye pun susah, everytime tanye, kene marah. nak buat cam ne.